友情博客

yesterday,i felt so blue.when i write a lot here,it lost.***!of course,it is not the real reason.
sometime,i feel i am a stray dog,out of place....

i miss those time when i was young.though i was not a happy girl when i was middle-school student.frankly speaking,i was much unhappier than nowadays.
at that time,i was a integrated child.that's to say,when i felt happy or grief,or mad,i was lost in such feeling.i forget anything outside.
but now,my identity become more and more divisive:when one me fell grief or happy,anonther me immediately jump out of my soul to the sky,it calmly look down myself---the person lives in the human society.it laughed at those feeling.it make me feel to ashamed.
how can i have such change of my idendity?i dot know why,just because i am an adult?if it is the reason,i hate it.if only we can still live in the feeling of childish...oh,no,impossible,it depends on yourself.
recently,i am thinking about such problem:can i change the actuality?i do not know whether i have the courage and ability to change something.god know,i am so flabby,it is difficult for me to control myself indeed.but now,i am not satisified with sth,everyone is waiting others to do anything for them.i really want to change it.
i am young,i am not a useless girl,i can not give up easily.

sigh~~nobody can live for you,espacilly you are an 27 years old female.you should learn to live for others,so you must have the initiative to change sth ,to try your best,to make yourself look like a mature/useful/lovely/smart people.it is everybody's duty and right.
ok,start from now~~~~~