The rest is the history. I become looking forward to his classes though they are sort of dull and boring but when I answering his questions he’s always listening attentively and looking directly into my eyes, andy’ s eyes, eyes like a lake.
I am no courageous nor confident person at all, there is always an self-abased sense deep in my mind. Yes I work hard but I am not the best ;I can write all kinds of different genres of beautiful or profound novels, essays, poems, comments but never been able to display them or take advantage of them, few people appreciate these pure literature today; worse still, I have no pretty face no delicate nose nor slender figure which once been a lady’s most important and only capital----
I know wisdom, inner beauty and personality is more significant than one’s appearance but I simply can’t ignore it, I do care it!
Generally I ’ve been believing in single white collar myself, no marriage ,no MAN, no children (it’s by no means graceful for a lady during pregnant to give birth to a baby),and making love or sex DO disgust me! I always have got a fairly strong aversion to those settings or plots in the
Love is one thing and marriage is completely another, so does the holy human emotion love to sex. Maybe I read too much “dream of the red mansion” I never go much for men before. All I knew about man was from my father, strong-minded, responsible, diligent, caring to my mother and his only-beloved daughter. But I never got interested in my male classmates or fellow colleagues or all my contemporaries. So I am totally at sea about this sudden fall into a opposite sex .
Or frankly I am still not quite sure that feeling is the right thing called “love”. My dear Collene told me that :“it is something
natural to a girl of your age to fall in love or to be troubled by something
called "love". I should say congratulations because not every one has such chance to encounter so called love and to be troubled and senstive to be the girl like Miss Lin daiyu in the Red Chamber Dream who would be sleepless during the night and shed some tears for nothing particular.”
She mentioned it, “red chamber dream” or“dream of the red mansion” is my favorite novel and Lin Meimei is my most pitiful and sympathetic character ’cause I found we have so many things in common. She has her mr.right JiaBaoyu and now I have my mr.right as well!
But love is not always beautiful and wonderful. they two survived everything in this huge universe and even death and live hood and got together in soul at last. compared with her my emotion turned out to be such a poor thing! I have found someone as my prince-charming for the very first time all in my 19 years life, but similarly to five years ago, it’s a mistake. He is my teacher and will go back to where he comes from next year ,just a passenger in my life. once when talking about his past I kidding that he is a world citizen indeed, never stop, never hesitate.
He replied with a charming smile.
My story, doomed without result.
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