梦想森林

i can not walk away without a reason
then you come and tell me the reason
so i will just silently walk away

I wrote down these words in my blog:"i broke up with him again ,not like before but this time it is so real."and then one guy come to comfort me ,in english.it does not do anything to the damage though.
i know i can not let him go that way.i keep thinking about him over and over again.how i want to know how my brain is function,i am losing control and totally insane .
desperately i ask him to go out for a walk with me and i hit him so badly .i hurt ,too.
we are sitting down in the chair of the changshan square.i try so hard to figure out what was wrong between him and me and it turns out he has somewhat miss me during the past 2 days.
these a moment i am so wanting him ,i wish he was just a part of me,the part of my life.i lean over and hug him tightly .the fear of losing him make me so scared.and them i kiss him gently.
i used to think kissing him is a little bit disgusting ,the smell of the mouth, the tougue twisting ,the dribble ... all of these is unacceptable.
but i like his kiss,it turns out so natural.the way is just nice i think.
"everytime i try to find fly without my wings i feel so small,i guess i need you baby..everytime i see you've been my dreams i see your face it's hunting me i guess i need you baby..."that songline come over my head again and again.