I Lost ---A dream and my sensation

      心情随笔 Essay 2009-1-22 14:29

Yesterday, I dreamt a terrible dream in which I was shot in head. The bullet was 2inches long, left in my brain. I felt dizzed but still can walk and talk. Later I went to  a hospital but it is full of the injured. It seems that a war just happened so there could be so many injured. Then I was transfered to another hospital. Before I was there, the doctor in the formal hospital said I could only survive for 33minutes, if I couldn't get treated in time. And when I got to the next hospital, time was very limited. I asked the doctor to be quick, but he seemed indifferent on me. At last, they finally took the bullet from my head without operating surgery.

After that, I dreamt I  was on a ship, together with Hurley, Sawyer, Sayid and other characters in Lost. The ship was on a wreck. All exits on the ship were closed except a window. The window was also about to close. Other members on the ship had jumped from the window and get escaped. At that time, there were only me and Desmond. I was afraid to jump, because I got a big bag with me. In the bag, there were a lot of important things to me. but if I jumped in the water with the bag, I feared I would not be drifting. Desmond urged me to hurry up. No time for making decision, and I dropped myself with the bag. But thank godness, I floated myself and swimmed hardly to the shore. Sombody gave me a hand and I was on the shore. I saw Hurley, Sayid and some other people. But there were also some missing. I knew they were gone and I felt very sorry for them. I went over to Sayid and gave him a hug from back, then I went away to hug others. At that time, I felt we were so closed than afar, because we had been through a disaster together, and only us survived. But I was not happy, neither sad. As if I saw kind of fate, that in charge of everything, I felt hopeless and helpless when facing this power. I Lost.

以上是我昨天做的梦,应该是和lost以及昨天看的日剧《流星之绊》都有关系。每天晚上我都睡不着,想事情直到困得不行。早上起来的时候也很痛苦,一醒来昨天的烦恼也跟着醒了。我爱睡觉,寒假的时候常常是一睡12小时,我想这跟我的心理有关,总是逃避现实。接受不了现实。

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