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you hurt my feeling [2005-9-10]
yuki 发表在 蝶语清心
| "perhaps better is, we need something distance perhaps, this is better for you and better for me...you and i not long time write or speak...when we much much write and speak, my feeling for you then more and more......is no good...then you have more time, can look another man "2005.9.5 当我看到这些话语的时候，眼泪不停地流出来。真的好伤心啊！
2005.9.10 凌晨2点还是睡不着，心里总是记挂着他。发邮件发短讯告诉我"i miss you"，可是一直没有他的回复。3：30还是没有他的消息，累了睡觉。6点起来，还是不见他回来在线。9点起来，收到他的信息"why you write me......i miss you.....????now you have much time, you can look another man。perhaps, chinese man, you can much much speak"字字刺心的话语，心好疼好疼，既然你口口声声说" I yuki very very like, perhaps more"为何现在居然说出这些伤我心的话呢？
Ingo：
你知道gary和他的妻子关系很恶劣。Jerry和他的妻子今年内即将离婚。当我知道jerry的消息,我很悲哀也很担心，因为在我身边很多朋友夫妻关系很不好。我想"他们都是中国人，他们都说中文，他们没有语言障碍，他们可以很好地沟通，他们可以很顺利地告诉对方自己的感觉(我和你不能表达自己的感觉)，可是最后的结果仍然是'离婚'。
You know ,gary and his wife The relations is very bad. Jerry and his wife In this year soon divorces. When ferry told me this news, I am very sorrowful also very much worried
. Because of in my side, many friends husbands and wives relate are not very good.
I think, they are all chinese, they are all speak chinese. They don't have the language barrier, they may link up well, They can very smoothly express own feeling ( you and I can not very smoothly express own feeling). But the final result still was ' the divorce ' L
我和你，一个说中文一个说德语，我们之间的沟通只能用很差的英语交谈，我不理解你的意思，你不理解我的意思，我很害怕以后我们会像他们那样的结果，我害怕'leave'这个词。
I and you, one people say chinese ,one people say german. We speak using a little english. I don't understand your meaning and you don't understand my meaning. I am very afraid, I will be afraid , later we will to like they such result. I am afraid this word " leave",
你知道我的英语很差。我学习英语已经一年了，可是我的进步很慢，我和你交谈仍然依赖翻译软件'kingsoft'，这是很不好的。
我想，如果你和另外的女人一起，你们可以说德语，或许你们能够很好的沟通，他明白你的意思，你明白他的意思，这是多么好啊！
You know my english is very poor. I studied english already 1 year, But my progress is very slow . I and you speak still rely on the translation software ' kingsoft ', this was very not good. L
I think, if you search another women. You can speak german, Perhaps you can the very good communication . you understnd her meaning , she understand your meaning. That is very nice.
你叫我去寻找其他男人。我想，这是不可能的。
在我30岁以前，我寻找身边的男人，但是我找不到我喜欢的。我喜欢宠物、旅游。但是他们不同于我。
you ask me search another chinese man. I think, This is not impossible
Before my 30 years old. I want to seek the man which i likes . But I do not seek this kind of man. I like pet I like travel, but they are different with me.
关于宠物：我发现他们并不喜欢宠物，他们对我说"我也喜欢狗和猫"，但是他们的眼神告诉我"其实他们并不真正喜欢宠物，他们认为猫和狗只是畜牲，它们不同于人"，但是在我心里"猫和狗不是畜牲，它们都有无价的生命，它们和人一样，"你知道吗？上星期开始，广州政府开始打狗，很多人失去了心爱的宠物。政府每一年都要做一次"打狗"，现在你知道为什么我说"如果我离开中国，happy必须和我在一起"
about pet: I discovered they do not like the pet .they tell me" I like dog and cat" .But their eyes tells me" Actually they truly don't like the pet, the cat and the dog are only a domestic animal, they are different with the person ", but in my heart" the dog and cat is not domestic animal. They have the precious life, they and the person are same, "do you know? Last week , the Guangzhou government started to kill dog, Very many people have lost the beloved pet。 The government each year must do it one time "kill the dog", now you knew why I did say "if I leave China, happy must with me in the same place"
关于旅游：是的,很多人喜欢旅游，但是他们的旅游方式与我不同，他们喜欢去城市，我喜欢乡村；他们喜欢人多的名胜风景区，我喜欢没有人的野外；他们不喜欢使用帐篷，喜欢住酒店，我喜欢简单干净的旅馆，你记得那个木房子吗？我喜欢那里的一切都是使用木头，但是男人会说"不好，地上很脏、洗手间不在一起"我和他们很多不同。
about travel: yes, much peoples like travel, But their traveling way and I different .
they like city, I like village; They like much person places. They like Scenic spot . I like I like nobody the open country. They do not like using the tent, likes the hotel, I like the simple clean hotel. Are you remember that mood hotel? When travel first day, we living the wood house. I like there all use the wood. But the man will say" no good, floor is dirty. The Bathroom have no together…." I and they much different
当我30岁生日的时候，我对自己说"我不会再寻找男人了"之后我告诉妈妈"我或许不会结婚，因为没有一个男人适合我"
当晓喻妈妈告诉我"ingo喜欢你,你喜欢他吗？"我说"不可能，我不会喜欢他的" 但是我看到你拍摄2只昆虫之后，你放生他们，你告诉我"如果他们在路边会被其他人踩死"。 我想，或许你是一个好人。因为在中国所有的人都会踩死那昆虫，但是你不会。
When my 30years birthday time, I say " I could not seek the man again " . I told my mother " perhaps I not to be able to marry, because have not a man will good for me"
When xiaoyu's mother told me" maybe ingo like you" I say" That is not impossible , I think I don't like him " but when I seen you "After you photograph of 2 insects, You set free them. You told me' If they stay at the road, another people will kill they" at that time,I think, perhaps you are a good man. Because in china, all peoples will kill insects, but you don't do it.
或许你说的对"我不知道什么是爱"。是的，你说的对，我从来没有恋爱过，我真的不知道什么是爱什么是喜欢。35年来，我第一次对别人说"我思念你"那个人是你，我拿着照片第一次对我的朋友说"他是我男朋友"那个人也是你，我第一次因为朋友的离开而哭泣，那个人也是你。当你说"you and I long time not write and speak" 我哭，当你说"why you write me......i miss you.....????" 我哭……..是的，我不知道什么是爱，但是我知道"喜欢一个人是很累的"
perhaps you are right."I don't understand what is the love"
yes,you say is right. I do not have the love the experience.i don't understand"what is like ,what is love"
For 35 years, I first time to said "I miss you"--- that people is you, I take the picture tell my friend , first time say "he is my boyfriend" ---that people also is you. When my friend leave me, I first time cry--- that people also is you. when you say" you and I long time not write and speak" I cry. When you ask me " why you write me......i miss you.....????" I cry……
Yes, I don't understand what is love! I do not have the love the experience. But I know " like the people is very tired"
现在我一边写一边哭，我的心很累很累，或许我们的认识是一个错误。
Now,I write and cry, my heart is very very tried. L
I think. Perhaps our meet is a mistake
祝你好运。
Wish you good luck
Yuki
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