feel so regret that I should be more obdient but not struggle for the life, care more about others is my weakness as well as my father, bad heritage I got.
Father never allowed me to be an intepret and said it's dangerous for a girl to do work with the foreigner. so even I enjoy language a lot, i have to select chemical as my major. whatever be a designer still attracted me, by the time going, everything changed, money becomes so important even replace the moral, I don't know whether I can be rude. it's out of my moral level, so I failed once again.
met him not in right time, even i love him a lot but i have to leave when he send his salary to buy an expensive British parfume for my birthday gift. i should help the whole family to help mother to help supporting father. so i left even unwilling, as a unique graduated student in this family, I have to do better than my brothers......
met him not in the right time, first saw him attracted by his not bad looking but apart looking, seems always unlucky, not attracted a lot, but impressed deeply every five to six oclock in the afternoon, he would wait for me in his crown car and pick me up to have dinner together, one day he got an accident and make me touching. we lived together and he cared for me a lot, but he couldn't leave his wife due to three kids, so I quit even that moment feel maybe love him......
met him not in the right time, we have a baby but he cared only himself, smoking gambling etc, I'd prefer to be a prostitute better than his wife, so I left.
so i left without any regret. Mum looked at me with her worried eyes, I have to say: Mum so sorry, I haven't got my good father but a trouble maker father, it's my fate, I have to struggle to live, I want to go no matter to paradise or hell. just want to forget everything regardless its splendid or not.
In order to get money, father even want to sale me, for money's reason, my husband always said he cared for me a lot but leave a big debt for me though I am still young.
i love this world love my life, but couldn't afford bored and gloomy, just want to keep my good figure when I live in this world, so finally I select fashion as my career, for this moment it's so difficult for this field to be developed with bright future. none of my friends support me and warned me not enter but I select due to harsh die, if without good life I'd rather select a field to die soon.
so dear friends, even you like me or love me, I hate wrinkled forehead, hate fatty figure and loose skin, this life I suffer too much, be raped be used be cheated be hatred, want to be a fish freely swim and be a small bird freely fly......
Father never allowed me to be an intepret and said it's dangerous for a girl to do work with the foreigner. so even I enjoy language a lot, i have to select chemical as my major. whatever be a designer still attracted me, by the time going, everything changed, money becomes so important even replace the moral, I don't know whether I can be rude. it's out of my moral level, so I failed once again.
met him not in right time, even i love him a lot but i have to leave when he send his salary to buy an expensive British parfume for my birthday gift. i should help the whole family to help mother to help supporting father. so i left even unwilling, as a unique graduated student in this family, I have to do better than my brothers......
met him not in the right time, first saw him attracted by his not bad looking but apart looking, seems always unlucky, not attracted a lot, but impressed deeply every five to six oclock in the afternoon, he would wait for me in his crown car and pick me up to have dinner together, one day he got an accident and make me touching. we lived together and he cared for me a lot, but he couldn't leave his wife due to three kids, so I quit even that moment feel maybe love him......
met him not in the right time, we have a baby but he cared only himself, smoking gambling etc, I'd prefer to be a prostitute better than his wife, so I left.
so i left without any regret. Mum looked at me with her worried eyes, I have to say: Mum so sorry, I haven't got my good father but a trouble maker father, it's my fate, I have to struggle to live, I want to go no matter to paradise or hell. just want to forget everything regardless its splendid or not.
In order to get money, father even want to sale me, for money's reason, my husband always said he cared for me a lot but leave a big debt for me though I am still young.
i love this world love my life, but couldn't afford bored and gloomy, just want to keep my good figure when I live in this world, so finally I select fashion as my career, for this moment it's so difficult for this field to be developed with bright future. none of my friends support me and warned me not enter but I select due to harsh die, if without good life I'd rather select a field to die soon.
so dear friends, even you like me or love me, I hate wrinkled forehead, hate fatty figure and loose skin, this life I suffer too much, be raped be used be cheated be hatred, want to be a fish freely swim and be a small bird freely fly......
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