风花雪月漫天逍遥

I am crazy with my decision to sign the contract with huge money investment, of course, to me is huge but to others maybe just a small case, even this moment I felt so regret but no way to be back.
Frankly speaking, I hate him who made my heart full of revenge, what i need is normal life not thunderstorm. whatever now it's wood be boat story.
so faint I even want to finish myself but my responsibility is not end. so tired......