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i just watched this movie
and i cried
seriously at first i question what i am
but i guess if i like ryuhei then i'm not what i think i am
the whole movie just made me sad
especially the part when they were so young
that was when i cried
i think they should be together
they love each other
why be apart?
and then my dad told me that he can bring my cousin here to keep me company
i rejected
cuz it really made me feel sad...
since the last incident i really would rather be left alone
yeah we have lots of things to talk about and we get along fine
but i know the relationship isn't what i want it to be
i've been searching and i thought i found it but it turned out to be a fake, a phony
i really don't wanna go throught that shit again
although i know she's not as bad
i just don't want another scar
so i rejected
i was dissappointed when he said he couldn't take me to chinatown
because i was kinda well more like really looking forward to it
i wanna get something from there really bad
i know it's childish to whine but how come all my life 95%of the time things don't go my way?
i feel so lonely inside
it's like i'm trapped
by my parents, this world and myself
i know if i have enough courage i can break free
but i don't
instead i just hide in my room all day and waste my life away
then i complain and cry about it
life is just sad
oh yeah i got another email from a girl
she said she's in LA
moving to...i really don't know cuz she wrote the place in chinese
i wonder how long this will last
probably 5 minutes
oh yeah i saw izo
it sucks
it's fucked up
just to let the whole world know i only watch it for ryuhei
and i saw another movie from him
it's call lian zhi men
i really like this one
it's so cute and funny
and i found myself really liking him a lot!
although he kissed a girl in there, wait he kissed two
and had some tongue involed
but oh well i still like him a lot ^^